076 // with memories returned
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thatlibbychickAt least I remember who it is in the photograph now, and I can say with complete satisfaction: I dated that. And I do indeed love him.
Ruby, how are you?
Ruby, how are you?
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Re: SPAM
Date: 2010-05-18 03:07 am (UTC)You can't keep running away from this. I know a little about comfort in misery, Ruby, and I know why you want things to stay the way they are...why you're comfortable in your suffering. It's painful, and it's all-consuming, but it's the devil you know versus the one you don't--and change is frightening. I get that. But you're at a place now where persecution isn't your biggest problem. What you need to overcome right now is yourself--your fear of change, your desire to hide. It isn't optional.
I am here to help you with everything. You just need to make the effort, and then let me in. You're not alone.
Re: SPAM
Date: 2010-05-18 12:34 pm (UTC)Don't. Don't say that.
SPAM
Date: 2010-05-18 07:21 pm (UTC)[She doesn't break eye contact with Ruby, not even for a moment; it's important that she shows unwavering attention.]
You are not a monster, and I think facing that scares you. You're so used to being seen as one that you've come to agree, but you've come so far here. You are a legitimately good person, and all you need to do now is accept that.
SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 01:48 am (UTC)SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 02:05 am (UTC)You are a good person. It's apparent to everyone; people are wondering why you haven't graduated yet. They're even positive you'll become a warden. Even if you don't want to sign on for that--it's your choice, not theirs--it's proof that others can see what you're hiding from. You just need to take the leap of believing in yourself.
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Date: 2010-05-19 02:09 am (UTC)SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 02:34 am (UTC)[Libby wants to hug her, but she can't. Not yet. She has to remain participative for now, not maternal.]
I'll help you with everything...you just have to let me.
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Date: 2010-05-19 02:46 am (UTC)Re: SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 02:47 am (UTC)It's okay to cry, Ruby.
Re: SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 02:49 am (UTC)Re: SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 02:52 am (UTC)I know because I do it all the time.
Re: SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 03:02 am (UTC)Re: SPAM
Date: 2010-05-19 03:04 am (UTC)[She decides to let it go for now, because she has an idea that the conversation wouldn't lead anywhere helpful.]
Do you think you're ready to work on this with me?
Re: SPAM
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Date: 2010-05-20 06:08 pm (UTC)SPAM
Date: 2010-05-21 10:06 pm (UTC)SPAM
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